twentieth minute ;
Friday, September 21, 2007
hello. :)
i had my sec three end of year english exam today. i wrote about regret. how if i had one chance to relive my life one more time, i would make sure that i didn't regret so much. as for paper two, it was easier than i expected. but then i expected like really hard, half expected a foreign language. haha. then i got back my nineteen minutes today. :)
in the book, there's a school shooting. and the students involved are scarred for life. some disfigured. one of them, this senior girl. she was the homecoming queen, dating a footballer. sterotypes tell us, it's just on the surface, for presentation sake. but then after the shooting, he was still with her. he never let go of her hand, sometimes running his fingers through her hair. and when he looked at her, he was still able to see her in a way that no one else would again. he saw what was inside her heart, and he still thought she was the most beautiful girl in the world, scars and all.
oh well. i'm deadd. cos i really really really don't feel like studying. and i'm going to fail my ss. and then what am i going to do! :( i'm very sad now.
haha, okay. now, i'm going to FORCE myself to study now. so i can watch TEEVEEE later. :))
i liked the walking part the most, when we were walking out to flag my cab. :DD
( 4:52 AM )
true believer ;
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
the state of my heart, the place where we are, was written in the stars.the smile on your face lets me know that you need me
there's a truth in your eyes saying you'll never leave me
the touch of your hand says you'll catch me wherever i fall
how come i can't see all those anymorewell, the english exam was postponed to friday. the reason, is complicated.and each night i lie awake wondering why you didn't call me.i think i'm getting paranoid. i'm scared that i'm not scared that i'm not studying for the exams that are in less than one weeks time. like !!! ohwell.
( 6:04 AM )
devotion ;
Monday, September 17, 2007
everytime i see you, i laugh. :D
i want to talk to you, yet i don't dare.
i waved to you today. :)
i miss you.
i can't understand you completely.
you're my dajie. <3
you're my mummy. <3
i don't know you anymore.
you're my BFF, and that's why ilu. :DD
you're so far away, yet so near.
you're the cute lil' girl who gives me a hug almot every time you see me.
and here's to You, cos only You know me inside out.
disclaimer: all these staement refer to different people. not one is used twice on one person.
( 6:15 AM )
belated belated ;
hey you, i know i'm in the wrong
time flies when you're having fun
you wake up another year is gone you're 21
i guess you wanna know
why
i'm on the phone
its been a day or so
i know its kinda late
but happy birthday
yeah yeah woah woah
i know you hate me
yeah yeah woah woah
well i miss you too
yeah yeah i know
i know it's kinda late
but happy birthday
so hard when you're far away
its lame but i forgot the days
i wont make the same mistake
i'm so too blame
so now you know
don't hang up the phone
i wish i was at home
i know its way to late
but happy birthday
yeah yeah woah woah
i know you hate me
yeah yeah woah woah
well i miss you too
yeah yeah i know
i know its kinda late
but
happy birthdayits not that i don't care
you know
i'll make it up to you
if i could i'd be there
yeah yeah woah woah
yeah yeah woah woah
well i miss you too
yeah yeah i know
i know its kinda late
but happy birthday
i know you hate me
yeah yeah woah woah
well i miss you too
yeah yeah i know
i know its kinda late
but happy birthday
to you. heard the new click five song? really nice. go listen to it. :D currently one of the only ones i've heard other than jenny. :)
( 5:42 AM )
only hope ;
Saturday, September 15, 2007
you know what, i think i'll just wait for my dreams to come true.
when the time comes, then i'll cross the bridge. until then i'll just stay as happy as i can.
( 8:28 AM )
it's too late for anything else ;
Friday, September 14, 2007
how could you let this happen to me. how could you just agree without another word. it's not supposed to be that way. it's just not right.
i can't believe you forgot.
( 7:24 PM )
what hurts the most ;
Monday, September 10, 2007
well. today is doing chinese papers day. :) haha, i'm currently doing the catholic high MYE 2007 express chinese paper. and then later i've to do the tkgs MYE 2007 express chinese paper as well. not too bad, all the papers are relatively easy, compared to cedar papers, and the anderson paper was like a killer. but oh well. haha. :D tomorrow i'm going to stay back and study study study. :D the EOYs are in less than 10 days.
anyway, on the way home , my mom was talking about how she was packing up her office. and with all the stuff inside, it was like insane. so she asked
'how do you pack away eight years of your life?' so i was pondering it ever since. is it actually possible to pack away, or simply keep it's far away and out of sight, forever. like keeping away every single thing that played a part in the last few years of your life. all the memories, the happy times, the sad experiences, the celebrations, the monumental moments, the short meaningful times, and all the more. then after you do, assuming that it can be done, what happens to you. afterall itsn't it the experiences that one goes through that make the person who they have become? you might as well be wiping your memory clean.
i don't wanna live my life without you.the last week or so has been really crazy. like non-stop mugging in church, then the ongoing games at the carnival on friday, followed by band practise, etc. oh and mokky bought us far too sweet lollipops from china. :) thanks! like so sweet, you could die of diabeties. lol. :D anyway, i've been reading and rereading my books, cos of severe bout of boredom. and of too much studying. i really feel even under prepared for this. when mdm faridah said that there was only TENN dayts left to our first EOY paper, i freaked. like i expected more time, not ten days. that's not enough!i'm like praying really hard. that i'll be able to do all this for God's glory. and do well, for him. i sometimes feel i'm not living up to the title of child of God. :/
so as the wave of paranoia hits, i better go start memorising. :)
before that,
tag replies.
mokky: eh, don't dodge the blame lah. hahaha, it was meant for you!
LEE: hello, here, REPLIED. :D
anon lorz: erm.
yuqi: aye aye ma'am. :) you mug hard too. action woman!
Zach: hello. well, i've been busy mugging for my EOYs. maybe i'll talk to you after my exams. and your mom's birthday was on sunday! haha. :)
( 5:59 AM )
lemon tree ;
Saturday, September 01, 2007
you know the real old song 'lemon tree', with the whole funny dumdum start, or however it starts. yeah, i was just listening to it on repeat one. and thinking. my mom told me before that when i was young i loved to sing that song. like i would just start singing 'i wonder how, i wonder why.. all that i can see is just another lemon tree..' you know and on and on. and then guess how i got to know the song. okay, get this
on the school bus home from kindergarden. cos i was always the last one off the bus and it was fun, it was boring. yeah. and he
always played that song, without fail. like to drum it into my head. :) but it's so. interesting. cos like all through primary school i didn't hear it at all. then recently my brother was playing it and i was like, how come it's just so familiar even though i'd never heard it before. :D
and so i'm doing my
june holiday homework now. about geography of food. haha, but i've utterly no idea how to do it. :/
i'm bored. and it's confirmed. i'm spending close to the whole holiday in canda. my last december holiday before my o levels. my last december holiday filled with trainings. oh well. lets hope i can go for the sec 4 farewell chalet whenever it is. hahaha.
and i'm really tired although i had over 12 hours this morning .
ciao.
( 12:56 AM )