hello. :D i'm jasmine tan and i'm proud to be a child of God :D

i want a canon digital IXUS 970 IS, an ipod classic, a new handphone and :D

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angel
angel/rachel
anna
charlene
cheryl
daniella
eeyang
ella/hannah
germaine
gurvin
huishann
hweeyin
jacq
julianne
levinia
lorraine
mavis
muhaina
parveen
raihan
rebeccacheang
sipei
weishan
xinyi
yeeting
zachary
zhaoming

6h'04
1a'05
2a'06
4z'08
youths

i've a headachee (head-a-chee according to angel) and angel's hitting my head in an attempt to make it better. :)) thanks.

tag replies.
ange: hehh, i hope you enjoyed them. :) i don't really. :/ okay fine, i hope anna enjoyed them then. :DD
olive: alrighhts. :)
esther SO: hello dear. :) i only have one thing to say. doshh. -.-
esther SO: so i know you're nice. and you were like OH SO FUNNY playing poker cards. ANDD i'm not THAT bo liao to roll my eyes at youu.
rohini: heyhey. you need to improve your eyesight mann. :D
xinyi: POSTPONEDD. :DD to tuesday. hahaha. and then the buzz@canteen the next dayy.
ange: AGAIN. :)) i still have it thoughh. and THANKS FOR THE MILO. :DD

( 12:51 AM )

hello. i was reading xinyi's blog and then i saw this part. 'Can't believe it, it's the LAST src carnival and june hols trng for us sec threes, and it will end in a few...hours' and then i was like OMG. yeahh, i totally didn't realise it. and i let it slip away so quickly. O.O oh well.

this year has so many last times for netball. and then next year will be for the school. OH MANN. and :)) yeeting's speech is going to be said on friday i think. and i think nair and i will start laughing up there.

oh well. and i like my fascist japan graphic organiser. :DD

( 6:14 AM )

and PAUSE. :) cos that's the image i love the most.

FINISHHEDD TWO out of FIVE tests already. :DD CHEMM, BIO ANDD A MATHH LEFT. O.O

anyway, finished my speechh. :) it's like copied and pasted from various of hitler's speeches plus a good deal of my own words. i'm so proud of it. HERE.

German people! Our new Germany places special demands on the German youth. The German youth are a foundation of the rebuilding of the German people and the German fatherland. The people and the fatherland place their hands on the shoulders of the youth and determine what educational and cultural values and goals are necessary for this youth to meet the needs of people and fatherland. This requires a truly national and social education for the German youth, and all involved in education has to serve these educational and cultural goals with their full energy. The racial State will have to see to it that there will be a generation which by a suitable education will be ready for the final and ultimate decision on this globe. The nation which enters first on this course will be the victorious one.

It is precisely our German people, that today broken down, lies defenseless against the kicks of the rest of the world that need the suggestive force which lies in self-confidence. But this self-confidence has to be instilled into the young fellow-citizen from childhood on. His entire education and development has to be directed at giving him the conviction of being absolutely superior to others. With this physical force and skill he has again to win the belief in the invincibility of his entire nationality. And this education begins with the individual at an age when he is not already burdened with preconceived ideas. The youth is the stone which is to go to the building of our new Reich! Our youths will form the Greater Germany! In them will be being formed the community of the German people. Before the single leader there stands a Reich, before the single Reich stands a people, and before the single people stands German youth! When I see them my faith in the future of Germany has no bounds, nothing can shake it. For I know that these youth will fulfill all that we hope of them. In you youths will and shall be completed that for which generations and centuries have striven, Germany!
In our eyes, the German youth of the future must be tall and slim, fast as the greyhound, tough as leather, and as hard as steel. But the time will come when the German youth shows a wonderful, healthy, beaming face, healthy, open, upright, brave, and peace-loving. They must be fit and strong, ready to take on any impending force that may threaten Germany. A generation of victorious active, daring youth, immune to pain must be developed. But I will have no intellectual training. Knowledge is ruin to my young men. I would have them learn only what takes their fancy. But one thing they must learn - self-command! They shall learn to overcome the fear of death, under the severest tests. That is the intrepid and heroic stage of youth. Out of it comes the stage of the free man, the man who is the substance and essence of the world, the creative man, the god-man. In my Ordensburgen there will stand as a statue for worship the figure of the magnificent, self-ordaining god-man; it will prepare the young men for their coming period of ripe manhood.

The future of our beloved country lies in the hand of the generations to come. We are getting on in age and must pass on the responsibility to our young, to all pure blooded children of the Aryan race, of every pure German family. When an opponent says, ‘I will not come over to your side,’ I will calmly say, ‘Your child belongs to us already… you will pass on. Your descendants will be Nazis.’ I shall never in my life have any greater reason for pride than when at the end of my days I can say: I have won the German youth and the future generations of people for the German Reich.

ANDD on MONDAY, WE'RE GONNA GO OUT. and we're gonna have FUN. and MUCH MUCH LOVES CLAIRE DARRLINGG. :)) HAHAS. and then we'll like totally camwhore alright. :D

( 3:32 AM )

yeah, let's rewind.
i put that day on constant replay.


oh well. i'm doing history now. like cutting out all the headings so i can paste it on the board. and i'm a sad sad person. hehh, i'm doing it all alone cos i do not want to do it with HER or HER. yeah. :) i'm being mean but oh well. likely, even if i do do the project with them, i'll end up doing it all alone anyway. so whats the difference. and EVERYONE ELSE HAS A GROUP. told you i'm a sad loner. hahaha.

and today i went to study in church. :) and got alot alot done. :) and played badminton too. :DD now i remember how fun it is. lol. wheee. got alot done today as well. revised biology once and then acids, bases and salts. and then did ALOT ALOT ALOT of research for history. so fun okay. :D and it's just me, but i think we should start a study centre in church. hahahha, gathering of the mugging YF-ers. okay, forget it. and i'm praying really really hard that i can finish like ALL my holiday homework on time. especially since i have like quite alot left. :/

oh and the speech for yeeting is DONE. and really nice. nair and shakila did that funny part. i just did the informative parts. :) hahaha. and STUPID NAIR. lousy comment. -.- yeah.

i'm bored bored bored. but i'm just blogging so that when school reopens it doesn't seem so dead. :)

okay goodnight. time for more history. :)

( 6:51 AM )

i'm bored alright. part two of the 5000 question survey. :)

50. Have you ever saved someone’s life or had your life saved?
well. nope, nope. heh, i live quite a boring life.

51. Make up a definition for the following silly words…
Fruitgoogle: a search engine for fruits. :)
Ambytime: one who is able to work in both imperial and metric hours.
Asscactus: i believe this word speaks for itself.

52. What was the last thing you made with your own hands?
well. hm. i know, a straw heart. <3

53. What was your favorite toy as a child?
this really cute brown dog. i still have it but it’s like coated with a layer of dirt. cos i always wanted a pet but my mom wouldn’t allow me to have one. :/

54. How many TV’s are in your house?
one.

55. What is your favorite thing to do outside?
at this point in time, it’s blading. :)

56. How do you feel when you see a rainbow?
a promise is kept! :D

57. Have you ever dreamt a dream that came true?
yeah. like i dreamt that my dream that i dreamt before came true in my dream. okay, i’m just confusing myself.

58. Have you ever been to a psychic/tarot reader?
nope.

59. What is your idea of paradise?
heaven. :DD being with God.

60. Do you believe in god and if so what is he/she/it like?
yeah. He’s like so great, He’s indescribable. :)

61. Do you believe in Hell?
yeah, but I’ve faith God won’t send me there.

62. What one thing have you done that most people haven’t?
well, i’ve been me. and since i’m unique, no one else has been me. :)

63. What is the kindest thing you have ever done?
hm. :))

64. Are you a patient person?
fairly. it always depends on what or who i’m waiting for.

65. What holiday should exist but doesn’t?
if only there was just one holiday with NO HOMEWORK.

66. What holiday shouldn’t exist but does?
all holidays are important days of REST. and they’re like really precious breaks from school. so all should exsist. :)

67. What’s the best joke you ever heard?
i’ll get back to you on that.

68. Where is the most fun place you have EVER been?
:))

69. Is your hair natural or dyed?
totally natural. and proud if it

70. Do you have any deep dark secrets or are you pretty much up front?
yeah, i’ve a few deep dark secrets.

71. What is under your bed right now?
dust, dirt and small insignificant stuff.

72. If you were in the Land of Oz would you want to live there or go home?
go home. :) cos home is where the heart is.

73. If you drive do you frequently speed?
underage driving.

74. What is the world’s best song to dance to?
a really really nice slow song.

75. What song was on the last time you danced with someone?
we just danced without music. :D

76. Do you prefer Disney or Warner Brothers?
equal

77. What is the first animal you would run to see if you went to the zoo?
dolphins. prettypretty!

78. Would you consider yourself to be romantic?
hm. shouldn't ask me.

79. If the earth stopped rotating would we all fly off?
i don't know. i kind of suck at science.

80. What is the one thing that you love to do so much that you would make sacrifices to be able to do it?
reading. :) especially if they were the books i love.

81. If you (and everyone) had to lose one right or freedom, but you could pick which one everyone had to lose, what would you pick?
erm. that would depend on alot of factors.

82. If you had to choose would you live on the equator or at the North Pole?
well, technically i'm almost living on the equator, just a few degrees north.

83. Would you rather give up listening to music or watching television?
listening to music. you can listen to the music on the television!

84. What do you think makes someone a hero?
what's in their heart.

85. What cartoon would you like to be a character in?
erm. hahaha. i don't know. maybe sabrina the animated series.

86. Name one thing that turns your stomach:
dead animals that look ewww.

87. What was the last thing you paid for?
erm. my math tuition.

88. Is there magic even in mundane things?
yeah. just takes imagination. :)

89. Get anything good in the mail recently?
yeah. really sweet letters from my best friend quite a while back but it's still great.

90. Which would you rather take as a gym class… dancing, sailing, karate, or bowling?
erm. all. :DD

91. In Star Trek people ‘beam’ back and forth between different places. What this means is they stand in a little tube and their molecules are deconstructed and sent to another tube somewhere else where they are reassembled. Only problem is when the molecules are deconstructed the person is dead. When they are put back together it is only a clone that has all the dead person’s memories. So… Is the person who gets beamed the same person on both ends?
well. technically the clone is an exact copy of the real thing. so i don't know. but i'd rather stay alive.

92. What insects are you afraid of?
erm. mosquito. dengue!

93. If you could print any phrase on a T-shirt, what would it say?
i'm a princess, cos my father's the KING of the universe. :DD

94. What’s the most eccentric thing you have ever worn?
don't know. hehh.

95. If you could pick one food that you could eat all you wanted but it would have no effect on how much you weigh, what food would it be?
hahahaha. it would be many things. but i think i would want either xiaolongbao, spaghetti, fries (if there's no effect on my complexion as well), or lamian. :)

96. What are your parents interested in?
many things. but i'm not that sure.

97. Have you ever caught an insect and kept it as a pet?
EWWW.

Have you ever caught and tamed a wild animal?
and risk getting like hurt or killed. erm. no thanks.

98. What is more helpful to you, wishes or plans?
plans.

99. When do you feel your life energy the strongest?
all the time. except when i'm tired.

100. You are spending the night alone in the woods and may bring only 3 items with you. What do you bring?
3 very very equiped bodyguards who have everything to last the night. :))

( 8:40 PM )

and now i'm doing my history. you know, the nazi regime. i wrote half of my speech and researched on the social aspect of hitler's rule. i feel so accomplished. like half the history homework in one night. wheee. :)) hahaha. the facist japan thing is quite easy. like a mind map. yeah. so my homework is ANOTHER step to being done. so happy. :)

and had training today. played friendlies with chongboon sec. good games. :D and then after everything we played crap with each other. WHOOTS, goal shooter okay! but i shot nothing in. :/ paisehhh. and then we've the SRC carnival on saturday. from about 11am-5pm. so anyway after training, all of us were like swapping homework. like LOL. and then i went to church and did half the biology 2006 EOY paper. :D

and right now i'm bored. you know, i think i did more this few days than my entire holidays. HAHAHA. and i've tuition tomorrow. but i think i'll go to church tomorrow to studyy. :DD

okay random pictures


propaganda posters of the nazi regime

it's all written in the stars..

red, red rose. :)

gardee.

south zone top 4, at toa payoh sports hall. :D

those were really random. i went into my folder and just clicked a few random files. hahaha. okay anyway, now i need to get off and continue doing my work. :))

( 6:53 AM )

I'M BORED. and i really sick now. but i want to go for training. :( so i shall just go. hahahah. okay. yeah. :D

yesterday had class chalet, but the netballers came along. PHOTOS :DD

keatli, raihan, ella, yvonne, hweeyin, nair, anooja, xinyi, cherie, yeeting and ME! :)


silent heartattack.

spastic nair. :D

and HAPPY 15TH BIRTHDAY YVONNE. :)

wheeee, TAUU POKKK.

those pictures pretty much sums up the day. sitting in a corner of the mrt gathering stares, teaching bridge, taking random photos. :)) tauupokk-ing. singing happy birthdays. going crazy. getting highh, having the time of our lives. and storing memories for good. :DD

training later! :)

and study study study.

( 8:00 PM )

you know, i've been thinking about this holidays. well yeah, it's not over yet, but i feel so accomplished. no i haven't completed my holiday homework - doubt i ever will. and no i haven't like finished a huge project, unless you include that biology project, or done alot of studying. but. i guess this holidays i widened my scope of view. and yeah got hurt, got refreshed. got to know so many people much much better. :D like during the kids camp, and YOUTH CAMP and just going back to church for fun.

the kids camp. ah. i haven't talked about that. grace and i helped audrey with worship as worship leaders. O.O lol, upgraded. and i worked with javis and talia who were our musicians. and i got to know angel and becky cheang better. and others. especially thanks angel. :) and OH. jon lian's sweet. thanks, you got me smiling. yeah. :) and then in youth camp my group THREE. consisting of ME, lionel, bethanie, alexander, amanda, mark, abigail, david, bing qian, anna, belle and aunty grace. :) nice, no great group. haha. :D so yeah got to know them better, especially those in my discussion group. we won SECOND place! :) oh here's a random photo of what i did while being bored during lock in period. HAHAHAHA.

yeah. see if you guys can read. hahaha. okay. and two more things. one's super funny. and the other's just a nice memory. on the last night, as everyone knows there's always no lights out. i play cards with mainly sarah, charis and esther. the other players changed from time to time. and the funniest was when charis and esther paired up to play hearts. apparently they weren't very clear about the point of the game. and kept us all in stiches. unfortunetly, as i had a bad sore throat, i sounded like a dying seal instead of laughter. yeah. after that i went to rachel's bunk to learn how to fold stars and hearts with straws. i gave up on the star but learnt how to fold the heart successfully. there's a KICK okay! hahaha.

then yeah. just came back from a father's day dinner with the KOH family (potassium hydroxide) at dan ryans. :) happy father's day to all fathers out there. hope you enjoy your day, and hope those from cbc enjoyed the prayer. :DD

goodnight. :))

( 5:48 AM )

indeed, that's with you, my Lord.

well. i'm back from camp. good but the 2005 one was nicer. :D the one which i was in the committee. :) haha. oh well. anyway. training's cancelled tomorrow so i'll have a long time tonight to blog about the whole camp. as well to do a history speech and find a good chinese article. wheee.

and this camp was the first time i took a bus up to malaysia. so fun okay. :) except that i couldn't eat (1)yong tao fu, (2)asam laksa, (3)chendol. yeah along the way at yong peng and melacca.but oh well. i read book, and played cards all the way there, once in a while dozing off. lol. and then we got there around like 3pm and then checked in a settled down, got into our groups [group THREE :D], played a few ice breakers and then an outdoor game of bombs [imaginary ones of course], screamed my head off and then ate a yummy dinner and then had our first theme talk. uncle moses was good. and funny. and captured our attention for the 1 1/2hours. :) he spoke of apostle paul. the hardships of servants. and the apostle paul is like how great. he did so much for God. :D yeah and got a bad bad sore throat. after group discussion we had free time before lights out at 12midnight. yeah.

day 2. had a nice nice breakfast. crossed a toxic river twice and then attended a two-part workshop about making decisions by uncle kc. and then station games! yeah. didn't finish all the clues, but good enough. and then had dinner followed by a theme talk. day 3. had breakfast, attended talk 3, skipped the games, attended a true love waits 'follow up' on dating, passed up talk 4. all for sleeping. cos i was SO TIRED. and then i got back in time to do the most memorable thing of the WHOLE camp. we were told to write our bothers, the issues holding us back, our past on a slip of paper, and commit it all to God. we went down to the beach and burnt them all. :) felt so good yet, at the same time, so sad. like my heart was breaking all over again. and then we went back to be locked in. and then had pt.

day 4 was a day of commitments. to go for a mission trip. and commit my life in God's hands. to trust him on that issue specifically. to let go. to give him my heart all over again. to rededicate my true love waits commitment. and then i took the car back to singapore.

and then on the way back i read this story, that illustrated almost exactly of our situation.

i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow, watched the stars crash in the sea.

tag replies.
lev: you shall be the first one i reply tags to alright? haha. you take care too. :)

( 6:36 AM )

i have a boxful of letters that you''ll never recieve.

i'd always wondered what it would be like to cry yourself to sleep.
now i know.

and i'd love you forever.

( 6:16 AM )

if only you could see me now.

ninety miles outside Chicago
can't stop driving
i don't know why
so many questions
i need an answer
two years and later
you're still on my mind

whatever happened to amelia earhart
who holds the stars up in the sky
is true love just once in a lifetime
did the captain of the titanic cry

someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why I was meant for you

does anybody know the way to atlantis?
or what the wind says when she cries?
i'm speeding by the place that i met you
for the ninety-seventh time tonight

someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why i was meant for you

someday we'll know
why samson loved delilah
one day i'll go
dancing on the moon
someday you'll know
that i was the one for you

i bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow
watched the stars crash in the sea
if i could ask God just one question
why aren't you here with me tonight

someday we'll know
if love can move a mountain
someday we'll know
why the sky is blue
someday we'll know
why i was meant for you

someday we'll know
why samson loved delilah
one day i'll go
dancing on the moon
someday you'll know
that i was the one for you

( 5:56 AM )

you know. this week has been hectic. like crazy. been reaching home at 11 for the first three days of this week. and yeah. i need to jian fei. so, this means stop eating oily food, carbs (the idea from grace), fatty stuff. and heathy food. and exercise! :) haha. and did you know. these few days, i had heart pain. don't ask why. cos i have no idea why either.

i laughed. i jumped around. i smiled. i frowned. i smirked. i attempted smiling. i read a letter. i cried. i summed up my day.

and i wrote a long long letter to you that you're never going to get.

( 5:19 AM )

hello. :) today was nice. i finally got to go to church. wheee. and then my mom flew off to new york again. :/ oh well. anyway. i had to stay back to learn the actions and recall the songs for the children's camp this thursday, friday, saturday. :D i'm helping in worship and games. yeahh. and then i went to watch soccer. at the empty field next to cedar primary. nice game. yeah. and i got a nice cross. :)) wheee. okay, bye. i'm going to sleep now. it's an early day tomorrow. 7am in school.

you know, i'll never give up on you. you gave up on God, but i'll keep praying for you. because i know things will get better and your situation will improve. i know that, God still loves you no matter what. and i'll still be here for you. and i love you lots too. God's really missing you alot and wants nothing better than to hold you in his arms and comfort you. He doesn't let all these happen without a reason. and i'll have faith. and keep praying and hoping. that you'll see the light all over again. God loves you.

( 6:22 AM )